being passive aggressive. it causes me to blow up on people and causes me to say stupid bullshit. i’m sorry i haven’t been a good friend to you. stuff like that has never caused any of my friend’s to be sad/annoyed/mad or bothered by’ before. this is all new to me. i care so much for you, which is why i freak whenever we get into argument’s, it’s why i never insult you, it’s why i take so much of your shit. you are honestly the best friend i have. I know you can’t say the same about me, and that’s ok. i wouldn’t expect you to. i wouldn’t expect anyone to. i’m hipocritical, overdramatic, stupid, a liar, and i don’t deserve it. i’m sorry for picking out little thing’s and making a big deal about it. i’m gonna try to stop that, but please forgive me if i do it again, like you said, it’s a part of who i am. i hate that about me. i hate almost everything about me. i’m tired of bitching about every little thing. it’s so fucking annoying. i don’t like how all my friend’s would know me as the “overdramatic” one. i don’t wanna be known as “that guy”. i try to deny it but i know it’s true. i just wanna be a good friend. to everybody. i hate conflicts, i hate arguing, i hate losing friend’s. which is why i’m such a pussy about everything, and why i’m passive aggressive. i’m done with being such a wuss. it’s time to fucking change. i’m just gonna stop giving a shit and only care about people who actually give a shit about me. i’m gonna stop giving “my all” to all of my friend’s. only to the one’s who deserve it. i’m gonna stop lying about little bullshit, because that leads me no where. i care too much about how people think of me, especially you. i’m gonna stop because that stop’s me from being myself. i was myself when we first met, when you said that i actually had a personality. i changed because you made me feel so flawwed, like everything was wrong about myself. to the point where i was afraid to say anything about anything, because of the thought that you would make fun of me and change me more as a person. the ridiculing is the reason why i lost my “personality”. i just don’t want to even think about us not being fiend’s. you mean too much to me. the thought of us “not being friend’s” kills me. i love being your friend and i wouldn’t change that for the world. but i’m gonna be myself from now on.